2 posts from March 2009

Well it is about 7 days till i leave to go home and I'm in still in disbelief that after all this time i will be home again. I'm really excited to see everyone but to be honest I'm a little nervous. I have been around the world ( well kind of) and God  has been completely making  me a new person by taking all the junk out in me. I feel like when i go back I'm going to run into a lot of old enemies and that people will judge me as like a high and mighty person who has it all together. The thing is God has convicted me in a lot of different things and i wont do those things because i know it breaks his heart. Anther thing is God has given me a prophetic gift and with that a lot of words for people and some of them are good and some of them are going to be really hard to tell people. Along with words he also gives me visions its something that i asked God to give me and like a good and faithful Father he gave them to me, not in the way i thought but he gave me exactly what i needed. I know that there are two worlds that exist right now, its ours and the real one, the spiritual world. I am so frustrated because  so many people don't realize that there has been a battle raging for the hearts of man ever since the beginning of creation. Its like people know that it exist but don't really grasp the reality of it and there are others who don't believe in it because it scares them or it doesn't fit in there little comfort zone. anyways i asked God to open my eyes to the spiritual world, i was thinking that i would be able to see like angels and demons. But i don't think God wanted that for me at least not right now, but a few weeks ago God started giving me visions of where specific people where in the spiritual world. Crazy stuff, i love it because everyone is so different, i got a vision of a girl who was in a battlefield and she was kneeling down praying and interceding and when she knelt down hundreds of angels flew ahead of her and went to fight the enemy that was before her. I told it to her and she said that was exactly what God had been telling her to do when she prayed, to get on her knees. That was only one out of so many other visions that God has used to either encourage or to warn.

So its things like that that i have to tell people and to be honest its not good what God is showing me, alot of people are being oppressed and in chains, so God is going to use me to bring a lot of revelation and to open eyes to alot of people and the enemy is not going to like it. So i need a lot of prayer and for people to be open because i am a prophet and that is an identity and gift that God has given me and i am going to speak what he gives me. Ezekiel 33:7-9

Its been awhile i know and I'm sorry, so much has happened and i don't think i can write it all down. so i will try and summarize my journey. Well i finished outreach and it was really good i learned a lot and God worked on my character alot. I think the thing that broke in me the most was that my words didn't matter, i kind of threw that lie out the door. I preached a total of six times lead a small group and taught a workshop. It was actually really fun, we also did a lot of evangelism and a ton of people accepted Christ.

After the outreach we went to a Conference that all the YWAM bases in Argentina which was like ten got together. It was such a crazy week, the first night God spoke so much to me and told me what his plans for me are and gave me my calling. I will talk about that when i get home haha.  

Then we went back to Puerto Madryn and i Graduated from the school and am now working as staff on the base. I am in charge of the animals and security on the base, and i am in the arts, mercy, and, intercession ministry´s.

One of the things that im really excited about is during my staff meeting i was sitting there thinking. I have so much free time and I know that God doesnt want me here just to watch the animals, I want more then that. So i asked God to give me some of his visons for the city. I didn´t get one but three haha, The first one was about the neighborhood that the base is in, we have never gone out as a base to minister to them so i got the idea to go out and talk to them, invite them to the church service that the base does every friday, and eventually i would like to throw a block party. The second was the youth of the city, they are a mess. I went to evengise during my school and i talked to four guys, they had all grown up in the church and now they wanted to blow the church up. As you can see the call for a ministery is much needed, so i am going out today and im going to talk to as many teens as possible and ask them what would be a good ministery. I would like to start a soccer league and maybe a football one too. the third one is a prison ministry, there is youth prison in the city and no one is doing anything with it. so i have a lot of ideas and i dont plan to let them just sit in the back of my mind rotting, I talked to my leader who is awesome and he has given me a lot of freedom to start these.

Another huge part of my life is Karley, she was a girl in my school, she is 20 and is from Canada. I started to have feelings for her in Nov. and i felt so bad because i wanted my time in the school to be devoted to him and no one else. I told my leaders about her and they said that i couldnt talk to her by myself, that i had to go in a big group (6 or more people), and that i couldnt sit by her. At first i was ok with the terms but as time went by i started to really have a problem it seemed the harder i tried to distence myself from her the closer i got. So the whole time on outreach i missed her so much and was praying for her all the time. I told my base director that i had feelings for her and he said that i could tell how i felt. so i told her on Feb. 27 that i liked her and i guess she had liked me since the second week of school. so now we are praying together and trying to take it slow. I love YWAM  because it makes couples move in accountality and in the princeples of God. There are three steps to our relationship, 1st we pray together 2nd is special friendship 3rd is boyfriend and girlfriend. So i would like you to be praying for me and her, thank you so much and i should be home on April 1st.