10 posts from 2009

Well it is about 7 days till i leave to go home and I'm in still in disbelief that after all this time i will be home again. I'm really excited to see everyone but to be honest I'm a little nervous. I have been around the world ( well kind of) and God  has been completely making  me a new person by taking all the junk out in me. I feel like when i go back I'm going to run into a lot of old enemies and that people will judge me as like a high and mighty person who has it all together. The thing is God has convicted me in a lot of different things and i wont do those things because i know it breaks his heart. Anther thing is God has given me a prophetic gift and with that a lot of words for people and some of them are good and some of them are going to be really hard to tell people. Along with words he also gives me visions its something that i asked God to give me and like a good and faithful Father he gave them to me, not in the way i thought but he gave me exactly what i needed. I know that there are two worlds that exist right now, its ours and the real one, the spiritual world. I am so frustrated because  so many people don't realize that there has been a battle raging for the hearts of man ever since the beginning of creation. Its like people know that it exist but don't really grasp the reality of it and there are others who don't believe in it because it scares them or it doesn't fit in there little comfort zone. anyways i asked God to open my eyes to the spiritual world, i was thinking that i would be able to see like angels and demons. But i don't think God wanted that for me at least not right now, but a few weeks ago God started giving me visions of where specific people where in the spiritual world. Crazy stuff, i love it because everyone is so different, i got a vision of a girl who was in a battlefield and she was kneeling down praying and interceding and when she knelt down hundreds of angels flew ahead of her and went to fight the enemy that was before her. I told it to her and she said that was exactly what God had been telling her to do when she prayed, to get on her knees. That was only one out of so many other visions that God has used to either encourage or to warn.

So its things like that that i have to tell people and to be honest its not good what God is showing me, alot of people are being oppressed and in chains, so God is going to use me to bring a lot of revelation and to open eyes to alot of people and the enemy is not going to like it. So i need a lot of prayer and for people to be open because i am a prophet and that is an identity and gift that God has given me and i am going to speak what he gives me. Ezekiel 33:7-9

Its been awhile i know and I'm sorry, so much has happened and i don't think i can write it all down. so i will try and summarize my journey. Well i finished outreach and it was really good i learned a lot and God worked on my character alot. I think the thing that broke in me the most was that my words didn't matter, i kind of threw that lie out the door. I preached a total of six times lead a small group and taught a workshop. It was actually really fun, we also did a lot of evangelism and a ton of people accepted Christ.

After the outreach we went to a Conference that all the YWAM bases in Argentina which was like ten got together. It was such a crazy week, the first night God spoke so much to me and told me what his plans for me are and gave me my calling. I will talk about that when i get home haha.  

Then we went back to Puerto Madryn and i Graduated from the school and am now working as staff on the base. I am in charge of the animals and security on the base, and i am in the arts, mercy, and, intercession ministry´s.

One of the things that im really excited about is during my staff meeting i was sitting there thinking. I have so much free time and I know that God doesnt want me here just to watch the animals, I want more then that. So i asked God to give me some of his visons for the city. I didn´t get one but three haha, The first one was about the neighborhood that the base is in, we have never gone out as a base to minister to them so i got the idea to go out and talk to them, invite them to the church service that the base does every friday, and eventually i would like to throw a block party. The second was the youth of the city, they are a mess. I went to evengise during my school and i talked to four guys, they had all grown up in the church and now they wanted to blow the church up. As you can see the call for a ministery is much needed, so i am going out today and im going to talk to as many teens as possible and ask them what would be a good ministery. I would like to start a soccer league and maybe a football one too. the third one is a prison ministry, there is youth prison in the city and no one is doing anything with it. so i have a lot of ideas and i dont plan to let them just sit in the back of my mind rotting, I talked to my leader who is awesome and he has given me a lot of freedom to start these.

Another huge part of my life is Karley, she was a girl in my school, she is 20 and is from Canada. I started to have feelings for her in Nov. and i felt so bad because i wanted my time in the school to be devoted to him and no one else. I told my leaders about her and they said that i couldnt talk to her by myself, that i had to go in a big group (6 or more people), and that i couldnt sit by her. At first i was ok with the terms but as time went by i started to really have a problem it seemed the harder i tried to distence myself from her the closer i got. So the whole time on outreach i missed her so much and was praying for her all the time. I told my base director that i had feelings for her and he said that i could tell how i felt. so i told her on Feb. 27 that i liked her and i guess she had liked me since the second week of school. so now we are praying together and trying to take it slow. I love YWAM  because it makes couples move in accountality and in the princeples of God. There are three steps to our relationship, 1st we pray together 2nd is special friendship 3rd is boyfriend and girlfriend. So i would like you to be praying for me and her, thank you so much and i should be home on April 1st. 

Well where to start i have been moving from church to church each week, so far i have worked at three churches. This coming week I'm going into the jungle to work with a church there, because right now I'm in the mountains so we are going to take a 6 hour bus ride to the jungle. After that week we will come back to Ayacucha, so this is a really nice treat.

So far i have preached three times in different churches and i am starting to really enjoy doing it. Before i hated talking to people but now its so much fun. The thing is i don't prepare my message before i go up, which takes alot alot alot of faith. I ask God what he wants me to talk about and he tells me and gives me scripture and i ask God to speak through me and he does. Its such an awesome experience and everytime it comes out really powerful, even my classmates tell me that it was powerful. its so cool because there is no way that my words are my own.

The thing I am learning so much and God is really speaking to me is my faith. I am reading all of the gospels and i look at Jesus life and he didnt let anything stop him from doing the will of the Father. so many times he says that if we have faith we can do impossilbe things. Thats why when we went to a house of this lady to encourage her, because she has really bad diabietes and cant work or do alot of things. I asked God to heal her in my head and he told me that he was going to. the thing was i beleived with all my heart that he could heal her and he told me to tell her that the next time she went to the doctors she would be healed and have clean blood. I have no doubt that she will be healed.

Before all this happened i was staying at this guys house and he is such a man of God. his testamony is crazy he had aids and was living a really rough life but one night he prayed to God and God healed him of his aids. Anyways he is a really awesome guy but one night he told me that God said to him that God was going to use me to heal and cast out demons.  

So as you can imagine I'm really exited to see what God has for me in just these few weeks haha Gods crazy

One of my gifts that God has given me is prophetic dreams, I know they are from God and thats all i can tell you, but a few nights ago i got a dream. I was back at Upland Christian and it was night out and there was a really dark cloud over the school, I walked out onto the football field and i saw a group of kids in a circle. When i went closer i saw them cursing the school, when i realized what they were doing i felt so oppressed and like this huge weight came over me.

I woke up still feeling weird it was like my spirit had just been attacked, That happened around three in the morning and i stayed up till six just praying and asking God what it meant. I'm still not sure what it all means but i do know that the school is being really oppresed by the enemy. I feel like whoever reads this needs to start praying and even get an intercession group started. I have been praying like mad for the school and if God tells me more about it ill let you know. 

If you know me i hate speaking in large groups so its a stretch for me to volinter to preach to about 50 people, the worst part of it was that God told me to do it on forgiveness. Nobody like to forgive those who hurt them but God told me to do it and with a gentle push from him i obeyed. The preaching went really good ( thanks to God), it was really shaort though cause He told me to skip a part of my notes which was like half of what i was going to preach on haha. But after i was done praching, there was a time of ministery and it was awesome alot of people got healed. After the service though a lady went up to me and said that God had given her  a dream about me preaching on forgiveness, that was crazy. It really encouraged me because i know now that i was following what God wanted me to do so that was pretty sweet. To tell you the truth i dont think i mind preaching anymore as long as its from God nothing will go out of his purpose and thats exactly where i want to be.

One of the things I have learned is that it doesn't matter how smart you are or how you express yourself if you aren't moving in the spirit then preaching is just a bunch nice words. Ive learned that if you truly want to help and change people you have to listen and obey the Holy Spirit. Thats when crazy stuff happen and i cant wait to be at that point with God! 

Well i just completed my first week of outreach and  its been a really hard fight for me to just focus on God. A lot of old enemies are starting to come out. My lowest point of the week was on Wed. because that whole day while i was working at the orphanage i was getting really angry, the kids wouldnt listen and where behaving horrible. The whole team was under so much attack, i just gave up, i was so defeated. I don't remember a time where i was that weak, i just kept thinking only three more days left. When we went home we just prayed and God totally gave me strengh and motivation to keep persevering, and ever since then I have been fighting for God and those kids. We finished our last day with the kids on Sat. and i really think we made a huge impact on their lives, because the staff there just yell at them all the time and hardly show them any love. I really do believe that we were able to show the kids what Gods love was like. Me and another guy where in chage of leading a small group with the older guys and i really felt God telling me to teach them what a leader was and how to be one. I told them all the younger ones looked up to them and followed their example. I don't think anyone had ever told them that, so Im just putting there lives in Gods hand and he will take care of them. 

Ok well this is alittle embaracing to write but the blog belong this one was writen at a very low point in my walk. I was stressing about money and when im going or or if im going home but i was not having faith that God would provide. So i asked God to forgive me because i was very convicted and he told me to to you not to give me any money. You can pray all you want but no money, that way I know that when i do get the money because he is so faithful its from him and not from my faithfulness. thanks again and sorry.

Ok well this is alittle embaracing to write but the blog belong this one was writen at a very low point in my walk. I was stressing about money and when im going or or if im going home but i was not having faith that God would provide. So i asked God to forgive me because i was very convicted and he told me to to you not to give me any money. You can pray all you want but no money, that way I know that when i do get the money because he is so faithful its from him and not from my faithfulness. thanks again and sorry.

Ok so here is the deal im trying to figure out when and how the heck im going to go home. I know that God wants me to stay in Argentina after my DTS which ends at the end of Feb. to work on staff. The problem is even when I know when i can come home or when the right time is i dont have enough money to fly back to Argentina and if that is the case then i wont be able to go back to the states for a while =(. So im praying for wisdom from God becuase i have about a month to decide. This is kind of a support letter so that ill be able to come home, im not to worried lol but i need lots of prayer and if lead money. Every little bit counts and will be  much appriceated. I cant wait to actually talk to everyone face to face about all that i learned. Thank you so much for reading these blogs i hope they have been a blessing. I originally started these for my parents and i guess alot of people are reading them. Oh and if you would like to support me with money for my ticket or monthly because ill need money each month to stay at the base when im on staff, talk to my parents and they will work it all out. Thanks again for all your support and God Bless.

Well hello right now im In Ayacucha Peru i left on my outreach last sunday and i finally arrived here on friday, im going to be here for 11 days then we will go to another province, i wll be on my outreach for 2 months. Ayacucha is so beautiful, it looks like spain or italy. we are staying in this pastors nice house and he is on vacation so we have it all to ourselves. but the city is so cool it has these really tiny streets and is covered in the greenest mountains i have ever seen. on the roof of our house we can see everything and there are so many old cathedrals around. Im loving it here, we are working with a orphanage that has about 30 kids. It is not that nice of a place, the kids are yelled at all the time by the staff. It is  a "christian" place but the staff dont like working thier at all, the only reason they stay is because the get paid. We had to do alot of spiritual warfare to brake the hold that Satan had over it. The first day we were there we felt blocked. but today was so much better we got them all together and did a really funny drama, then i got to lead the devotional which went really good. I had a whole lesson planned out but during it God had me change alot of what I said haha but it really touched the kids. Then we broke off into small groups and we had the kids tell us thier past and oh my gosh these kids have had to grow up so fast. One of the kids is 13 and he is already been in a gang, struggles with porn, and he was telling us that Satan talks to him all the time. He told me that he had inherited an addiction from his dads side of the family where all his uncles and dad are alcoholics and sleep with alot of women. Another one said she saw her dad kill her mom. Its just really screwed up here. Some of the kids told us that all of them sleep with the lights on because there is a spirit(demon) that goes around at night scarynig all the kids and takes off there blankets. There is alot of spiritual bondage here, so we just sat down last night and prayed for about an hour and half. We just renounced all of satans hold over the orphanage, and no joke 30 seconds after we prayed it started to rain and God told me that he was pouring his spirit over the place and had just taken over the orphange! Its awesome i really feel like we are goin to brake alot of things here.Be praying for me alot and ill try to do as many blogs as possible.