4 posts from December 2008

The class we had this week was on Identity, what God thinks about you. The class was really good but the thing that was key for me was the end of class. My teacher gave us all a piece of paper and told us to draw our identity in God. I started to pray and i asked God who i was. He showed me what to draw

     I saw a picture of me standing behind the cross, i was covered in the armer of God (Eph. 6), my chains were laying on the floor broken and i was walking into battle.

My drawing came out OK but what i really cared about was what He told me. He said that i was his warrior and deliverer of the truth!

I was just sitting there smiling and praised God, just thinking how cool is that, i feel bad for people who sit around playing warcraft all day because they are missing out on the real thing.

     last week i did a camp called NIKO, i promised not to talk about it in detail because thats part of the camp, not knowing anything. But its a camp that takes you out of your limits, physically, spiritually, and, mentally. Now if you know me i love wilderness and camping, but the first day i wanted to go home, it was that hard. you can only take the bare essential, toothbrush (which i forgot), sleeping bag, a few changes of clothes, and a knife, anything else it gets taken away. it lasted about 5 days and was like backpacking on steroids. It wasn't a week that i felt close with God and to be honest with you i hardly had time to pray. I was in a team of six and i had to rely on them so much, that was what God was teaching me, sometimes he wont always step in to help us but he places people to help carry our berdens. i would have not been able to finish the camp without them and i grew really close with them this week. It was also really good training for me for missionary work, i cant go into detail but some of the things we did, I might have to do in the future if im in the feild. Looking back on it im proud that i finished it and now that im able to process it God keeps speaking things to me through it.

     last week i did a camp called NIKO, i promised not to talk about it in detail because thats part of the camp, not knowing anything. But its a camp that takes you out of your limits, physically, spiritually, and, mentally. Now if you know me i love wilderness and camping, but the first day i wanted to go home, it was that hard. you can only take the bare essential, toothbrush (which i forgot), sleeping bag, a few changes of clothes, and a knife, anything else it gets taken away. it lasted about 5 days and was like backpacking on steroids. It wasn't a week that i felt close with God and to be honest with you i hardly had time to pray. I was in a team of six and i had to rely on them so much, that was what God was teaching me, sometimes he wont always step in to help us but he places people to help carry our berdens. i would have not been able to finish the camp without them and i grew really close with them this week. It was also really good training for me for missionary work, i cant go into detail but some of the things we did, I might have to do in the future if im in the feild. Looking back on it im proud that i finished it and now that im able to process it God keeps speaking things to me through it.

     I have been praying a lot about what God wants me to do and what my future is going to look like. I have total peace about staying here in Argentina to work as staff. I don't know for how long but i know that he wants me to stay for awhile. I talked to my discipler and he said that alot of the leaders want me to stay and that they would take me. It cost $150 to stay at the base a month and about $50 for food and i think $50 dollars for spending money. So all I would need would be $250 a month to live which is really cheap so I'm pretty excited.

     While I'm on the topic of money let me invite you into my bank account =) after paying my base fee which was like $2360 or something i had about $1000 left over so last month I had a class on renouncement and one of the things i had to give to God was money because i rely on it so much. But during the class i felt like God wanted me to to give Money to two of the people going on my outreach because they didnt have enough. i talked to them and it ends out out that they needed together $600. I was like wow but i knew i needed to pay for them so i had $300 left. I still was like I'm still good that will last me for awhile but then one of the leaders told me that the plane ticket for Peru ( Im going on outreach there) cost $300 more. I cant help but laugh at how God works he will break you till you have notheing then he starts to really work in you. I can honestly saw that i have total peace about giving that money away God is far more greater then a few couple pieces of paper and I'm not going to let that control my life, God has set me free.

    Thats not all that i have learned from money, about three weeks ago i lost my credit card, to behonest with you I think God just took it out of my wallet. the events that led up to are totally God. lets travel back three weeks i still had my credit card and i had $125 pesos in my wallet, I had just had my class on renouncement and at the end of it the teacher told us to get money and i got $20 pesos and he told us to step on it. I did then i felt like God told me to rip it up so i did. then we had like a church service and i got $5 pesos out to give in offering but when it was time to give he told me to give the $100 pesos to so i gave that to. So the next day i find myself in town with no money about to go into the bank and i cant find my credit card, oh my gosh i was so mad then i started to think about all the things i gave up and i started laughing,. Even though i have no way to get money God has provided more then enough, people will pay for me all the time, they leave groceries on my bed, and i found money on the street to pay for the internet one time. Its so funny that i would worry about money, it makes me laugh and also kind of sad that people are slaves to numbers and paper. i have been humbled so much, like before i was the one always letting people borrow money and stuff. Now i have to learn to humble myself and allow people to take careof me and its totally braking my pride. Im not worried about not being able to get my credit card I'm just going to step back and let God move.